Winds are changing

Came back from an Al-Anon convention last weekend - what a great time! Then went to a meeting Monday night that got me thinking about this blog...

Someone mentioned about "singing the hymns"... but as she talked I realized she was saying, "singing the HIMS"... and basically the point was to keep the focus ON US - on our recovery - on stories of strength experience and hope - instead of he/she did this he/she did that grumble worry grumble grumble.

When I look back over the past 2 years I am amazed at how much I have grown as a person, and how many positive changes I have made.

I'm working on living MY life/learning how to live MY life. In doing so, I am finding less and less need to write about "her", and doing more and more trusting God that He and Heather can manage her life without my "help".

My relationship with Heather has been great and she seems to be doing very well (defining "well" by leaving out my personal judgement on how things "should" be). I love Heather more than imaginable, and while she is still the greatest light in my life, I am working hard at living MY life - and not hers :)

But, it's progress not perfection...
My husband and I went to the dog park today with our two dogs. Of course I brought a bag - totally prepared - of anything we might need - treats, baggies etc. Including a bowl and bottled water.
When we arrived I put the bowl down and filled it with water (they do have a fountain there for the dogs, but being me, having to "prove" what a GREAT mom I am, I brought my own supply...).

So a *couple* times during our stay at the park I proceeded to say to the dogs, "Go get a drink of water, go get a drink of water."
To which my husband finally said, "They will drink when they want to drink. Let them be."

To which I thought: HUMPHHH!!!

Before responding, "I can no longer smother the kids, at least let me smother the dogs - I have to get it out somehow!"

HUMMMPH!!!