What Faith Can Do

No, no good news here. Still things have been so busy, I feel a bit psychotic... never mentioned on the blog, but I had surgery early April and things have been set back since. Have been busy (how someone who doesn't work can be so busy, I don't know...) With Heather I have been actually PRACTICING DENIAL it seems. Just logging on to get a couple things out - mostly copying and pasting. From last post, she's doing something other than pot, of this I am sure. I feel like I am back to the summer of 2009. Regarding her biological dad, she has NOT seen him in years (three or more???). He lives in another state, but smokes pot everyday - not with her - though he did smoke it with her when she was in high school and he visited here in Florida. No need to dwell on it, the past, but the disbelief he knew about the present... How much can I expect of someone? I don't think he knows whatever drug she is now doing. Along with not writing on the blog, my Al-Anon meetings have been scarce - for obvious reasons as I was stuck with the surgery - just getting back to... well LIFE... the past week. Hoping to catch up on my blog friend's blogs soon. I miss everyone, but my prayers have never stopped. Praying when I get a chance, I find some GOOD surprises.

Florida's marching on with it's battle against prescription drugs. Though our current Governor seemed determined to undo all the good the prior Governor accomplished on the database front. Ironic, I did not care for the past Governor, and had high hopes for our new one. Ha! Nonetheless, it seems Florida is FINALLY catching on to the seriousness of the prescription drug problem here.

I have so much to catch up on, write down, but not enough time. My reference to feeling a bit psychotic... well... I love my daughter so much, and am fighting the possibility of "losing" her to drugs again... (as if I ever "had" her) thinking if I ignore it, it doesn't exist. It's so hard watching your child drown. I logged on the share these song verses, they have been helping me as I recite them in my head. To Heather.

"What Faith Can Do" - Kutless
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

"You Are More" - Tenth Avenue North
There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

"The Words I Would Say" - Sidewalk Prophets
Three in the morning,
And I'm still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I'd say,
If we were face to face,
I'd tell you just what you mean to me,
I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say...